Whatever you say, I will be here waiting for your response. His discipline is designed to lead you to repentance and restoration to himself and is a sign that you are deeply and unconditionally and extravagantly loved. All will have babies in their hands before the end of the year.God cannot love you any more or any less than He does right now. He disciplines out of love, and He loves you too much to let you run out in the street and play there in the middle of traffic. One of those young ladies was, like you, in a leadership role at a ministry. As youth ministries speak into the world of our completely love-starved, sex-saturated culture in which we now live, this is the one point where we must speak crystal clear, prophetically even: God has a different and better and higher way.
I'm telling you because it is easier to write to someone that I don't really know. And I feel disgusted with her for what I did and what, even as I write this email, I want to do.
I have taken myself away from God because I feel He keeps me away from her, and I just know He wants me to be with her but not in a sinful way because we do great things for Him when we are not doing that. And we have an image at church as "the couple that never fights or has problems." I'm scared that God will punish us for our sins, and I want to stop, but my flesh loves it! I need help, and I feel like if I don't stop, it will lead to a deep falling away even if I do know Jesus Christ as the Son of the Living God.
Yet a feeling in my flesh rises up and makes me want more. That is a immovable, constant truth, but I willingly want to sin, and I make provisions with the flesh.
My calling is to be a youth pastor, yet I feel I don't fulfill my role because of my sin. God is real, and He works in ways that I can't even imagine, but I sin and I sin.
It so happens that this week I am personally witnessing and helping to navigate the natural consequences (and God's discipline) of sexual sin in two different young, unmarried couples' lives. Sexuality is one of the primary places where this generation is getting hammered mercilessly. Warriors on the sidelines, watching the adventure go by, while they eat their stew.